Random Sunday Thoughts....

- he asked me... I said yes... it will be a whole though

- we are on our way to GA for Christmas/ Yule.  

- kids are okay so far

- He is doing really well

- I am having nightmares about going back to work.  I am off for almost 3 weeks

-  have a great week everyone!!

Random Sunday thoughts....

- 12 more days....12

- how do you get a 15 year-old to understand that what they do right now in school matter later.  That when they refuse to do anything at all it has consequences. 

- Lone_ember is gearing up for vacation as we speak.  I hope he understands the broken piece of me are still wobbly.

- Moose is being a butt ,  that’s normal though.

- TheTallest is calming down after she found out she can wait a little longer to be an adult.

- starting two week of midshift tonight.... and I can’t go back to sleep.  Ugh 

- TheSims3 ..... been playing it a lot.  No real thought process involved.  

- playing with yarn a lot.

- oh an I broke my toe on thanksgiving .... ow.  At least my knee is healed.

- Have a great week!!!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- still failing at work... I know I’m not, but I feel like it.

- coffee, need more coffee...

- must get body ready....

- will pay off all my credit card debt by 2021... not a goal, a fact.

- want a 90 on my PT test in May.  And it is possible.

- in 19 days we leave North Dakota for 3 weeks...I can’t wait.

- playing with yarn more.

- reading more.

- playing lots more dnd.

- feeling more myself lately.

Have a great week everyone!!!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

-feel like I’m failing at work. 

-feel like I’m failing as a mother.

-I have failed twice at being a wife.... how do I tell him I’m terrified of being a failure a third time.

-I wish it was December 13th.... then I could be packing to leave.

-I wish he was home so I could talk to him.

-I am old, fat, and tired.  And one which I can’t seem to pull myself out of this funk.

-I have 12 more squares completed.

-got to play Diablo 3 for a little while yesterday.

-that’s about it....

-have a great week everyone.

Random Sunday thoughts...

- thank the gods pt test is done an passed.

- I’m so tired.

- more coffee is needed.

- not very motivated .

- TheTallest boyfriend is in the hospital ... she’s not doing very well with it

- TheSmallest is refusing to try anymore

-Moose is being a dick at school. 

- the 22nd looks like when I will finally be done with papers.

- Lone_ember is my grounding point right now.

- at least I am off until Tuesday ... 

Well off to make my brain work

Have a good week!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- I don’t wanna go to work tonight.

- I need a break.

- j needs to finish the fucking papers already.

- TheSmallest will be the death of me.... I feel like an utter failure....

- TheTallest is going to be better at life than she thinks.

- Moose is doing so much better this year.

- is a white lie still a lie? Asking for a friend.

- I now fear not being enough to the point of making shut up in my head.  Everything feels like I’m wrong no matter what anymore.  What do I do?

- Happy Samhain!!!

Have a good week.... 

Random Sunday thoughts....

-prepping for a pt test with a bum knee is terrible.

-TheTallest May be extending highschool.

-TheSmallest is getting better....

-Moose is a butt.  Although school is much better than last year.

-work sucks...

-Lone_Ember is fantastic....

-December needs to hurry the heck up....

- coffee....

Have a great week!

Random Sunday Thoughts...

-Well hello again... it's been awhile.

-I need coffee... well more coffee...

-I need to write more.

-I flipping can't wait for all the paper work to be done.  (so back story needed:  I left J almost immediately after my last blog post... DM for further details.)

-Moose is finally settling down after an awful two year stint ... He's 8 now.

-TheSmallest has become open with himself... and now have a 15 year old boy (not girl)  so we are all working on the right pronoun.  Thankfully he is understanding.

-TheTallest is 18 and a senior... she is not allowed to be an adult damnit!

-J got laid off sooo no child support to be expected soon.  So I pick real winners in that department :/

-I love my job (the part where we fix things not the part where we do 3 tons of paperwork)  but I do love it

-I met my best friend at basic, we went to tech together, and then against all odds got stationed here together.... so I am smitten again.  Only this time I am making him go through classes, meetings, and a long ass wait.  We have been together a little over a year now.  Lone_Ember is amazing an understanding.

-I need to find more pictures for you all (if anyone is still there)

-Have a great week.... TTyL