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Ever felt so spaced out you forgot what you were doing? Yeah, well that happened to me today. Twice! I would be worried if I didn't already know the stress has been mounting pretty high lately. Going to the gym helps get rid of some of it. But, most of it is still there festering. Even though I had a moment of Zen , if you will pardon my loose use of the term. I had it today, the second time I forgot what was going on. I was stretching in the circuit room of the gym, and it hit me. I can't DO anything about it. I can't make the army NOT send Dave to Afghanistan. I can't make my sister suddenly and completely well again. I can't make my parents young again. And I can't make my father in law not be a jerk anymore. So why am I so stressed about any of it? Because , I am a worry wart, that's why. But, it isn't healthily. At all. So I am going to focus on the things I can control. My weight. My health. And my kids. Well, I kind of have them in control...I think. I am working on some new idea for my next body art. It is gonna be a very large piece. I can't wait to post some sketches. Have fun all!!!!
Ever just had one of those days? Well I had one today. At it started at 3 am. Anna woke up screaming. Her eyes were crusted over! EEEWWW!!!! I cleaned them off an gave her some mortin to take the edge off her fever. It took only a few minutes to get back to sleep. But, and hour later Kadi woke up. Time to play, mommy!! So I up at 4 am for the day. *sigh* At 7 am I called the Doctors for an appointment for Anna. Very lucky they had an opening for 9 am. Caught the bus, which was thankfully on time. Then headed to the city bus for the doctors office. Got that one just fine. I barely made it in time. Then Waited until 11 for Anna to be seen. *sigh*. Kadi screaming the whole time to destroy the office. Finally the Doctor came in. Said she had conjunctive and gave her a shot. With a prescription for eyedrops. I got tot he bus stop only to have it drive right by. We got to walk 2 miles. Well I did. Anna rode on my back. When we stopped to get the eyedrops they were 3 times what they should've cost. Now I don't have enough for diapers!! We had to wait 2 hours for the bus to pick us up afterwards to go home. And Kadi still wont take a nap! AH!!! Okay I feel better now. Let off a little steam. The good things. Anna is just fine. Nothing serious. Kadi is fine. Just a little brat. And Dave is great, his stitches are out, and he is IMing me everyday. Well have fun all!!!
Now I am just going crazy. I love to work out. I have only been able to go every other day. My in laws are just not caring that there is even a problem. At least my kids are behaving. Dave un fortunately can not come and help out. But, that is not his fault right now. I thought I was being selfish for focusing on myself for a bit. Now I realize I am not. After seeing what real selfishness looks like. Oh my goodness!!! I have never seen anyone have this little regard for others well being. He is trying to take everything. He took one of the two ice cube trays. The fact that he actually called my mother in law "hun." and "babe." today almost broke the camels back. I was good I didn't yell at him. I didn't talk to him actually. Am I allowed to be this angry though? He agreed to help dave and I out. And now when Dave can not do anything about it he is abandoning us. I am most upset about how upset this has made Dave. He is so worried. I can hear it over the phone when I talk to him. *Sigh* Oh well can't do anything about any of it right now. I have my afghan about half finished which is saying something with everything that is going on. I have my camera back so will post some pictures soon. Miss everybody. Have fun for me!!!!!
Now first of all I apologize to those of you I haven't been able to call. This week has been hectic to the point of throwing crap out the window. My Inlaws are having troubles. Which sucks since I live with them. I can also hear everything they were yelling about because the walls are paper thin and now Anna won't talk to her grandpa. The girls hear him too. Won't get it to all of it. But, suffice it to say Friday he decided to spring up and move out. Which really sucks, cus he's taking the bills he paid. Actually not the bills, just the money. Mommy-in-law and I will be ok. Just unable to do much. I am so mad I could spit nails!!! And to top it off I haven't been to the gym in 3 days, so i can help butt monkey get his stuff outta the house. And make sure he doesn't steal mom's!! Oh well I feel a little better. Got to go! Have fun all!
I am so spaced out today. I have had a migraine for most of the day. Had an appointment with my trainer today. It went pretty well. Just kinda spaced out for half of it. Kadi is finally getting the last of her teeth. Hopefully she gets them quick. She screams when she is awake. So I am glad she is sleeping. Anna has stopped listening almost completely. She keeps asking for Dave. Can't do anything about though. She should settle in after awhile though. I hope so. Loosing weight pretty quick too. I am very happy about that. Well have fun!!
Okay Dave leaves by the end of this week. I am good though. I have lost 7 lbs since last week! Yeah! I am working on getting my New Years list filled out. I do weight training every other day now. And Cardio every day. And although I am getting sick of Apples, the diet seems to be working. My trainer and I have a new goal set up. To get to my Army weight in 4 months. That's fifty lbs! But, I think I can do it. Especially if I can keep this up. My shoulders hurt really bad right now. The bus ride is gonna suck today. I have to carry Kadi while on the bus. And she likes the bus, but hates having to sit still. So she climbs all over me. Hey I can deal with the ten minutes it takes to get there right. I have been doing it for a week. I think I will be okay. The girls love the day care room there. Anna asks every morning when we are leaving. LoL. I like taking out my stress on something. Keeping in bottled up was starting to really get to me. Well off to get the day together. Have fun!!!
Okay, here we go. My tests, all of them were negative. Happy dance. Dave came for a visit! Now here's where it starts getting bad. He called at 7:30 Am on Friday, from a hospital in Bakersfield, CA. He flipped the car 4 times! He is okay. Only 6 stitches on the side of his head. We lost about a 1/4 of our DVD's, no biggie. And his new lap top got run over by a jerk who drove right by the accident without stopping. I am glad Dave didn't go after it. The guy probably would have run him over. He left today. About an hour ago to be exact. And that will be the officially the last time I see him until he gets back from Afghanistan. I haven't been to the gym in 3 days. But, I am going tomorrow in the morning, early. Time to focus on making myself into what I want. And focusing on what I want and need out of myself. And getting Anna school ready for next year. My migraines were getting better. But, I have a really bad one today. I am going to miss him so badly. Well, I get going. Have fun....
Hello everybody. I am slowly going insane. No word from the doctor yet. But, I guess no news is good news. I joined a gym Friday. I have been working out everyday. I remember why I used to do it. It's fun. Dave will be coming home for the weekend. I miss him alot. Oh well talk to you later.
