So tired

- morning...

- work is better

- my knee is worse ... MRI Monday

- TheSmallest is acting weird again since he’s been home

- unsure if Moose’s meds are working

- I am numb ... an I know no one reads this anymore

- have a great day anyway...

Ok..

- TheSmallest is back in the hospital.  Attempt number 4.

-  I feel like I’m going to fall over.

- took TheTallest to the ER yesterday.  She was crying she’s in so much pain.  We waited for 8 hours for a doctor to tell her “it’s all in your head”

- I am so mad I could scream...

Soooo..

Sitting in the ER waiting to get tested for covid... fucking great

Wtf

What the hell is wrong with me....

Random Sunday thoughts...

- I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow..

- I feel like a terrible mother.

- I feel like a terrible wife.

- I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow 

-  have a good week...

Tired

I am so tired... I don’t know how much longer I can deal with the universe shitting on me.  I really dont

Annnddd

No more baby this time...... I feel empty

Oops

So it’s been awhile... stuff happened
TheSmallest got worse... then better.

TheTallest graduated !!!   Holy crap!

Moose is doing loads better. 

Oh yeah and...

Here we go again..

Random Sunday thoughts....

- another week of crap.   TheSmallest is In The hospital again.  I don’t know what to do...

- TheTallest is doing well

- Moose is still a butthole

- I am afraid I am the worst thing for Lone_Ember.  He deserves better than me.  

-  am the safety meeting made me feel more terrible than I did before.  Now I feel like I’m in trouble for asking for help....

Random Sunday thoughts....

- the school sent cps to my house.  Because apparently the 7 meals a day the moose eats isn’t enough.  Long story, an I don’t wanna go through it again.

- TheTallest is going through the first breakup.... I feel terrible for her.

- TheSmallest has been skipping classes... and failing 

- I am a terrible mother

- I miss myself

- Lone_ember is fantastic.  I don’t know why he loves me

-  went to mental health.  So I have a safety meeting on Monday.  

- I need me

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- vacation should’ve been like a year longer.

- it was fantastic

- I need to get all the photos I order so I can post them

- Moose is doing well at school

- TheSmallest is feeling a lot better

- TheTallest is freaking out about exams

- I do not want to go back to work

- LoneEmber is amazing

- my coffee pot broke.... my new one arrives Monday 

- the great white north is currently covered in ice an snow

- starting on my run again... gotta get it back up

- have a great week!!