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I am so tired.  I now officially don't like KY.  I was informed yesterday; through a teacher, by the principal that because of the way I look I can no longer help at the school. Or co-coach the cross country team anymore.  I refuse to change myself for one person, when this is the first time I have had any issues with my appearance.   I refuse to tell my children that letting other people decide how you are is ok.  Because, it is not, nor will it ever be.  

And I still have the flu...

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It's a sucker-punch kinda day....

Feeling sick ... Flu

Disconnected, unappreciated, overworked, yadayada. Nothing new.  I need to get over it.  And just go forward. Just can't seem to pill myself up and out.  Feel awful, no ones fault but mine.

179

I am sick... Oh ugh

180... Cont...

Cleaning the house.   Still.  Found bite marks in Kadi's chair.  

Yes , bite marks.  I haven't been able to start pickling yet.  Still cleaning...  

Ugh...

Moose man is being an arse, but that is normal.  I need to shift more things around.  All the bills are paid up or gone. So soon the money should be there to use to start prep on the big plans.  

Stress,  ugh my stomach is tore up.....

Oh an I like Torchwood so far....

 

180

Vacuuming the house.

 

My room is clean, finally.  All spaghetti sauce done.  Will be pickling today.  

Hoping to get some more sorted.  But, I am sooo tired.

182

Okay.  8 more jars of sauce done.  More on the simmer.  About pickle peppers and squash.  Yeah.

Oh and there's poo all over Moose's room again.  J is on a weekend fishing trip.  And I think I am done ..... Just flipping done.....

183

So tired.  Just ground 10 lbs of meat.  And canned 12 quarts of spaghetti sauce .  Only got around two hours of sleep last night.  Still need to vacuum, and sort the living room.  

J is going on a fishing trip this weekend.  So I will be alone with all the stress for 3 solid dang days.  Yeah for me.  Anybody wanna help?

185

Okay, still sorting.  The poop monster is on the couch.  Kitchen floor done.  Inch and half on sock.  All bills paid for six months.  All food bought for six months.

Needs to save $10,000.  Think we can do it?  I do.  

188

Took a break from cleaning.... For one... Just one day.  It looks like the show hoarders threw up in my house.  I am so pissed.  No one.  Not one person picked up the slack.  Or did their own chores for that matter.  What happens if I decide to visit some one by myself?  What would happen?

But on another note had fun with girls. Took them shopping.  All day.

Moose is still a butt head.

190

Moose has become a poop monster.  And defiant  butt nugget.  I had to strip his room bare to make it easier to disinfect when he spreads his body waste on it. Ahhhh!  He is now officially a toddler.

Well paperwork for great and exciting things can get started later today to monday morning.  Yippie!

Kadi and Anna are at each others throats again.  So the next place has to be four bedrooms to start with.  Not for us to complete. 

191

My period started.  I feel like I am dying.  Ugh...  If anyone wants to see me I will be in the cup board...

192

Shrunk 4 large craft boxes down to 2 small.  All junk paper work boxes sorted. Desk drawers cleared.  About to clear desk top in to pink box so I can sit an sort.  

Need to empty and sort wardrobe.  Six bags of garbage went out yesterday.  Ugh... And I am not even close to done with the moving purge.  Good thing I have a while huh....

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My stomach hurts so muuuch.  I wish I could make my body work right.  

Slowly getting the house in order for the big decision.  So excited.  And can't really share it with anybody.  It sucks just on that!  Need to get some plastic totes.  Yup, yup. 

Playing with yarn.  Yeah!  Watching Alphas, I like alot.  We finished off a foreign miniseries Arn yesterday.  I loved it.  And we finished off all of Dr Who.  I is sad face :( .  

 We went to Hubers yesterday with friends and Moose is STILL asleep.  

It was fun.  Tractor rides, peach picking, petting zoo.  It was fun.  

Well more cleaning.

 

198 .... And Anna is 12!

Isn't she beautiful!!

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The house is recovering from the girls being home.  Yeah!!

 Started some knitted wash cloths from my yarn scraps.  Still downsizing.  Hoping to get some locking totes, to put my things away from the boy.  

When I keep a decent house.  There shouldn't be a trash bag full of trash, and 2 for goodwill everyday.  :(.   There is just so much junk.  

Sigh.  

Oh well here we go!!!

200

My brain is dead.  It feels sooo early today.  We broke the streak last night.  Woowhoo!!

School starts today!  Thank frigging gods!!  I was going crazy from the arguing.  Only one will be at home during the week.  I can deal with that.  

Back to the workout.

201

Morning glory didn't make it.  

I feel unwanted.  It's been six weeks.  Six weeks!!  😥  What in the world.  If we were older I wouldn't worry.  But, dang!  I am 33 and he's about to be 30.  That's it.  It's got to be me.

  

Well the girls go back to school tomorrow.  Was only able to het half their school supplies.  But, hey we get paid Thurs.  

Sigh....

203

John killed the only morning glory I had come back this year.  I tried repotting the frayed end.  I don't think that will work though.  I am so upset.  It didn't even get  to flower.  

Well at least he finally trimmed the yard.

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My stomach is killing me.  Ugh.  Slowly downsizing all the crap in the house.  Time to get the crap together.