A little homesickness for ya...

Sweet tea anyone?

Holy cow..

Man I forgot how much dialup blows. *stretch* Waking up early again. Falling back into the habit of being a mommy. Only here I get once a month of free daycare. So maybe I won't go insane. I still need to see a counselors though. I hope everyone is doing well. The baby blanket I was working on is now a full blown toddler blankie. LoL. I made it WAY to big. Watching the kids eat breakfast. Mm...Eggs and cheese. Well I gotta go take a shower. Have fun all!

Hello....

Hello everyone. Been busy lately. Right now I am wifi hopping, hope the connection holds. I finally have my little house. That is so much bigger than our apartment in Germany. I have a front and a back yard. That are just mine! Yippie! Well I am gonna leave you with a hug. Have fun all! I will be here, just missing Dave.

wk 44

Well I am Wifi hopping right now. So pictures will be coming soon. I like my new house. And post is pretty cool. At least I am away from all the drama. Yippie. Well I am alive and okay. Have fun!! I miss Dave.

Oops forgot! WK 45

Okay tomorrow I am loading the uhaul so I probably won't be able to post. And since I am gonna have to wait on the ohine company for my internet. It maybe about a week. So no worries. I am doing ok just a little frazzled. And I can't wait to get outta here. Have fun all!!! Love yas! And missing Dave......

Hello from inside the land of boxes....

You never realize how much stuff you have, until you have to pack it all. I started last week and I am still not done. Nuts! My brain hurts...I don't know how to pack the little Ihave left. We go an get the trailer and truck tomorrow. I hope we get everything done in time. *sigh* well have fun all!!!

Okay....

Discovered that my in law's are no longer allowed to take pictures at family gatherings...... only a few came out.

And that would be it!! Lol arent they sweet in their matching dresses!!

Happy Holiday!!!

Hope everyone had a great day. Mine was okay. And the girls had a wonderfull time. Hunting eggs, and eating waaaaay to much candy. I actaully dressed up today. In a skirt! Will find pictures sooner or later. Will post the pictures of the girls later tonight. Had devilled eggs and made lots of potato salad. I need to pack some more of my room up. I need to get it all done by friday. Which sounds like plenty of time but, I know better. Well have fun!!!!

Some Eggs!!!!

Ohmygosh!!!!!!

Alright I said housing would open up in 6 weeks, right? Okay..... I pick up my keys on the 24th!!! AHHHH!!! Holy crap. *Breath-breath* Dave MIGHT be able to come home and help me move. But, I am not gonna put to much hope into that. At least now I will be on base an near a more supportive group of people. Which is so awesome. I can't wait to meet my new FRG. They sound like so much fun. And I have been told they have a good counseling facility. Which is also good. I have until August to get my FCC classes started I believe but I might be able to slide under the wire for the May class. But, I think August would be better. I can get the house ready and everything set before I even start the classes. Well I am much happier today. Thankfully the weather man was wrong. Have fun everybody!!!

Yeah.....

I know everyone here in this portion of soggy CA was happy about yesterday. And this morning is promising more sun. I know it isn't gonna last. Is it wrong for me to hope so hard that it does? Having some problem with everything lately. I got two more small boxes packed. I wished everything was a little more clear cut with the military. You would think it would be right? Nope. You'll get housing...some time in the next 6 weeks...we think. Oh well. At least when I get there I can stop worrying about every one elses bills. Coloring eggs and making potato salad today. Sounds ambitious doesn't it. Lol. Have fun all! I am going to try today.

Missing my soilder.

Ok....

Alright... Now I have proof. I am going nuts. Look what I made.. In an hour...

WK 46

I reeeaaallly wish it would stop raining. I really wish housing on Fort Irwin would open up soon. And that Dave could come home now. I need some sleep. Can't seem too. And I am not eating very well again. Can't even make myself do it. *sigh* oh well. Waving from the soggy land of CA. Have lots of fun...extra for me!!!

Hello to all....

And here world is Mothra Jr!!!!

Here comes the rain.....Again....

Morning everyone. I am afraid CA is gonna float off the edge of the USA soon. It has not stopped raining for more than an hour for close to 3 months now. We have had more than enough rain for a year. I think I am fully prepared for the desert now. The lack of water will be a welcome change. And the rain isn't doing well for the depression problem I am having either. I miss Dave so much. Well, I am gonna to pack some more in a little and finish off Heidi Mothra Jr. Then hopefully the baby blanket I have been working on for a month. AH.... But got lots of baby butterflies done. Yippie! Have fun all!!

I just now realized....

that I may be a little over controlling. Or at least have a tendency to over prepare. I have already started packing and prepping the few things we have here for the move we will be making in like 5 to 6 weeks. But, it could be before that. But, we have barely over one room full of things. I am sure it will all fit inside a small rental truck. And I have to get a medium one, if my Uncle or mother in law take me. Since they only allow trailers for cars on the medium ones or larger. I started this morning slowly packing a box. And just now realized that I could pack everything in an hour if I wanted. But, here I am packing probably over a month early. Oh well, am I weird? Have fun!!

morning...

Now I am working on the fact that I need a washer and dryer at Fort Irwin. And after that I would like to get an elliptical. But, all that requires money which is something I don't have. *sigh* Anybody got any ideas?

Ok.. Ok.. Ok..

So maybe I am a little obsessed. But, it's ok, he's my husband. It's a good thing... Right?

my Dave...

Ok..It's official...This sucks...

Okay I had to give my notice today. At the best job I have ever had. And I was then fired....20 minutes later. Because, I am unreliable. Dave came up with a solution to my bubblering problem. I am going to apply to be an FCC provider at Fort Irwin. You know a home day care. I love it. Yeah!!! BLOCKS, BLOCKS, BLOCKS!!! But, now I have to figure out what to do with my 6 weeks. Since I still don't know how my gym membership is going to work now that I am no longer employed there. And I certainly can't afford the joining fee again. *sigh* okays people. Time to save up for an elliptical. Yippie. Dave will e coming home for a little while... in 6 weeks. And everyone here is mad at me. Because I am abandoning mom, but no one is mad at my father in law. Hmmmm... What is wrong with these people!! I miss Dave. Not a lot of yarning going on. Haven't been able to focus very well unless surrounded by kids lately. And Anna wants to play alone. And Kadi has a hella cold. Nuts... Well YOU have fun for me!!


Here's some sexy for ya!!

...manic...Yeah I think that's what they call it...........

Felt better for like two hours....
Feel like crap again. I am talking to Dave now though. Yippie! Got on the housing list so will be in a stable situation soon. Which is good. Dave will only be able to come home for like two weeks though. *sigh* I miss him so much. *cries*

Soon will be able to fix some of the problems. I hope. Have fun all.

ooohhh maaannnn....

don't know if his command is gonna realize him to come and help me. I can't keep my food down. Stress seems to be a great diet pill. At least I have my job still. I betcha I am the only person who works in a day care that can say she is only sane at work. That seems to be the only time I feel human anymore. The girls are making me focus. SO I feed, bathe and hug em. But, I can't seem to get everything in my head straight. Not doing good. Anyone that knows me.... Well you know how bad I get before I say anything. Guess what... HELP!!!!

pics

DAVE!!!

WK 47

Yeah in the crush for got to post the week. Having another panic attack like right now. Fifth one since yesterday....

Ok it's official...

Okay now I have officially lost it. I have had a nervous breakdown. Can't do this anymore alone. Everyone send some hope my way. I seem to have misplaced mine. I just want to know why I have to call the red cross...Not my husbands unit to get help.....
I also very unfortunately have missed two days at my new job. Which was the only thing keeping me sane. After Anna's shots Monday she started puking and we had to come home. And yesterday I had my breakdown in the morning(and this thing is on going by the way) then had to go see a DR in the pm. Which means I was stuck across town at the time I needed to be at work. I would not blame them if they fired me. Heck, I would fire me. But, hopefully the red cross will agree to send Dave home. Cus, I just can't handle the stress of him being gone, the kids, and now the crap with his parents...Ok I could keep going but I feel I have complained enough for one day. Thanks for listening. And I hope all of you can have enough fun for me too.....

Nope not today....

I feel like curling up into a little ball. I don't really want to face today. I was doing really well. But, not today. All I can see is this messy room, and an empty bed. All I can smell is Dave. Even when I bury my face in my pillow. I have been hearing him today. I think I am going crazy again. This can't be regular lonely. Otherwise everyone would be walking around talking to themselves.... Out loud. Oh well I guess I just have to deal.

morning..Rain

Can you believe it is STILL raining? I can't thinking about visiting mom just to get away from the rain. Gotta take Anna to the doctor today. Yeah, shot day. Whoopee.... Note the sarcasm. Then I got to work tonight. But, that's ok I like work. And it is only 3 hours. I had to get Kadi a crib Saturday. She was escaping from her playpen. So now I am broke like right after payday. *sigh* oh well no biggie. Well I gotta go get ready for the day.. Have fun!!