Have you

ever felt like your chest was gonna implode?

OMG

I am ok. I think. I want them gone. I need my OWN HOME BACK! But I can deal for a little bit longer I think. *sigh*

Soooo

Gonna make family mad at me soon *or part of it anyways*
An I don't know if I do much more housework that I didn't create...sigh..
It could be worse....

Dude!

hiding from my sis an bro in law at the coffee shop on their day off so they will watch their own kid. Wow.....I cant even stay at my own house...........

Wow

Ahcoo...

Been super busy cleaning...getting little people ready for Sahmain/Halloween...... An worrying over how to break the news to my sis that we will not all FIT when she has the 2nd baby. An I am not watching them both. I can't handle that. Espeacially since doesn't realize she's taking advantage of me ......I watch the baby almost everyday for ten to twelve hours...for free. An the one time I ask the to watch the girls *while they are asleep* they back out.
Not very happy. Feeling trapped inside my own home since I CAN"T go anywhere. They're sucking money out of me.
An these are things I have told them......they are not listening..... I am a maid an a nanny. Who seems to be here just to make their lives easier.

41 weeks til te end of the first year.......

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

I don't care if you live with me. It isn't ok for you to tell me how raise my children. I am not telling you how to raise yours, even though I am doing it for you.
No it isn't ok that I am watching the kids, cleaning everything, and paying for everything. This pisses me off.
An no it isn't ok that, I am the only one not allowed to have negative feelings. That I have to be the one to smile all the time. An be f*ing happy about everything. Well excuse me. I f*ing am not.
I happen to think the choices you both made are stupid. Having ANOTHER baby right is NOT a good idea. You cant afford the one you have. An NO you can not live with me for two years while you find your feet. Your f*ing sucking me dry!!!

Hey

if you can tell me who said this I will give you a cyber cookie!!!


"Music was my refuge.
I could crawl into the spaces,
between the notes and curl,
my back to loneliness."

Sorry been gone so long...

had my ten year HS reunion.....this is me at 2 am..
got all my stuff...an am trying to clean my house.
an I am missing TheDave....

Over an over.....

It's been one of those weeks you know. I have no idea whats going on, or how I feel. Just that I am drained. Hope everybody is ok.

We got the rents moved. My stuff gets here Friday. Preparing the house for that. It kinda blows...

My sister an her boy toy *my husbands brother* I know, I know can't get much more redneck huh. Are staying here. I watch the baby...it gets tedious an bitchy so you really don't want me to get into right now. Oh well.

write later......sigh.

Have you ever ...

just wanted to leave the kids with someone for a week....and not tell ANYONE where you were going?

I feel like that right now......

Oh Happy Mabon.......

sigh

oh yeahhh...

I guess I forgot to tell everyone that Dave is gone once more to the sandy place. Over to Iraq he went.
He will be back in 49 weeks an coutning.....

done!

we got the house. The bills are all changed over. Now we just gotta get my parents settled so I can get my stuff moved in. An everything will be COMPETELY done! LOL!

Hey!

Buying mom an Dad's house.
Hope everybody is doing well! sorry no pictures yet. We are still getting everything settled in! HUGHUG!

Home...

Now we are home...What a long flight...

*sigh*

Cleaning at 9:45 pm ....alone the night before we have to turn the house in.......I think I have a right to be 'slightly' miffed.

*I am so frigging tired...between P an I we have cleaned an painted two houses. But, my old man is upstairs not helping me...this bothers me slightly...as I have 3 bags to repack, a kitchen an bathroom to once over, an I am dog ass tired from scrubbing shit all damn day. 'oh an painting' Once again slightly miffed*

Wow! So busy!!!

Okay this weekend blows...it's sooooo busy. P is moving...we're getting everything to her house. *I hope!*
We also have to clean the car so we can turn it in. But we have just clean it...we have to CLEAN it. For an EPA inspection. An while I understand the need. It sooo blows.. They want to make sure we don't accidentally transport gypsy moths home with us...
An I have to gather everything that was left behind for hold baggage on Monday. We have like 3 boxes, but its sorting through an finding what to take on the plane an what gets put in hold. *sigh* All of this HAS to happen this weekend. Around 17 kids...holycow.
I wish I could take my projects....but my yarn won't fit in my bag. I have to comfort in the fact that Dave said he would take me to a yarn store as soon as we land. Or at least Wally world... *sigh*
Well back to cleaning!

Guess What :P

The movers just left. All our stuff is gone. We leave on the 23rd. *Crap*

Ok..time to go!!

We packing up! We are getting a date today! It's official! It could be as little as 3 weeks now. *my stomach hurts.* I don't know what to do. *Sigh* We still have so much junk to go through an throw out, an give away.
Decide what we need right now, an what we can do with out, an what can be put up for several months. *sigh* I am so glad we have a large shed at Mom's. :P Ok here we go. Time to get to work. I hate this part about any move. An this is the big one. The last HUGE Army move. SO it's the biggest one of all. The scariest. *would someone tell my tummy to quit ugh*

I got a box!

From Dawn! And I made a moth! An I am gonna make lots more!! Teehee! SQUEE!

Look pretty rolls!!!

Happy Birthday to me!

Sitting here doing laundry......
watching someone elses kid.....
an doing other house work.....
*sigh*
Happy birthday to me....

Hoping I can start my birthday sometime this afternoon.....*sigh*

Hello

It's been pretty good...almost perfected my little sushi rolls. :D which makes me happy.
Watched "The Water Horse" More times than I can count with Kadi. Anna is watching it for the first time now. :P
Kadi got a haircut...it's cute all styled ...can't even tell its cut when it's down....

Need to clean some back to living among the boxes...

Look what I made!!

Not perfect but yummy anyway!

Just one of those days.....

I have been feeling off....
Packing boxes again so soon...while I know I have to...an I should it's making me feel off. The house is starting to slowly look empty again. Packing my books up. Throwing stuff out that I don't want. Giving stuff away I need. Looking at stuff I can sell. An deep cleaning as I go. Wondering if we are really ready to get out or not. I think we are. But I am not sure.
*sigh*

Gone for a walk....

sigh...

Ok well we have started saving even MORE money which is good..I know. But, it kinda drives home the point that David may be being dropped in July....and his RCP is coming up. So we have already started to get get boxes from self help, to start sorting junk. I am a little scared. But trying not to worry to much. I will start posting pictures of our Big ass couches an a few other pieces of furniture in late May, or early June since I don't think they will fit in my Mom's shed until we find a house. I am just glad we have a place to stay until we find one. Since most people that this is happening to right now, don't have ANY savings, or a place to stay. Shit most guys that are retiring right now have no savings. We have enough for at 4 months, with the car. 7 without. We are hoping to pull beyond July, but it is looking doubtful. We want as much money saved up as possible.
And while I am a little scared. I can't wait to get home. An Dave can't wait to get out of the Army an not have to cut his hair anymore, or have to shave. :P

Sorry been gone so long...

We've been on spring break.... an moving the house around.

Cleaning an chucking stuff. Getting ready for the *possible* move. We may or may not be moving in July. But better to be safe than sorry. I don't wanna have to move an go through the crap WHEN I get to Mom's. :P There is STILL so much crap. After we threw out so much at Fort Irwin. We will be selling stuff when we do find out when we are going no matter when it is. The old ass furniture that is about to die. So we have a little bit to move on. That way we don't have to dip into the savings. I plan on selling a few other things. I hope it works :P

Had to take new passport photos, an get paperwork together, since they expired. *ugh* Gotta go turn that stuff in.

Been working on Tracy's baby blanket. It has turned into an afghan :P. It will be done before the baby is born. YAY!!!! :P

We had the captian's change of command. We now have a NEW Captian. I am SOOOOOO happy! And of course Dave made faces the whole time :P







Oh an Kadi whooped Anna an I at bowling!!!

Manda's Blankie All Done!

Time to mail!

Hello

I know I have been gone forever...been sick..*uck* I have a baby blanket for a friend in the works..then comes sissys!! Tracy is having a girl..I deciding on the colors for her blanket. I am almost done with Amanda's now. But she is being induced due to BIG problems.....so the baby will be born before the blankie gets there *sigh* . I also discovered the butterfly box Dave was supposed to mail the Heidi two months ago in the car. Again. It was mailed at Fort Irwin an came back due to the fact that the postal service there blew an it got lost....at least it came back! But this time Dave just didn't mail it! STOMP! STOMP! I will mail it next week *sigh* I hope she likes it :P
We had a change of command not long ago I took Kadi with me. She had fun.

boo

Crud

My OCD has kicked in an I no longer stand the inside of my house. I have been cleaning since 7 am and I just can't seem to stop. So far every junk drawer an cabinet is gone. An the kitchen is spotless. I have waxed the floor. Reorganized the paper. And am halfway through the dusting, laundry, an the sorting of the massive amount of coloring books.

See this is my main problem....once I begin....I do...not stop.....until I fall over....

Ugh.....

I have been doing house work off an on..... Been trying everything.....
Between the pain.... an the mess I feel like crap.....May be I should just give in....well back to the mat...

Holy cow..

Ever had one of those days.... that the stress makes you want to jump up an down an scream? That if you had the ability you would take off for ten hours of nothing? I have wanted nothing to eat all day but apples....I don't have any..... *sigh* My stomach keeps rejecting everything. It blows ass. I am downing *decaffeinated* coffee.
I'm not really tired though. I want out of the house. With out my children. I want my camera, an my sketch pad. My note book and my I pod. My husband is welcome if he wants. But, the car is not. I feel confined. Pressed. Suffocated.
I haven't even been able to sing an entire song with out being interrupted by little people lately. An not always my own. LOL. I love children be jeeze. Just one day....soon to feel... alone... I need.... freedom....

Love

Sorry it's been so long..

We've been busy. And every thing has been up in the air here with my illnesses. Dave's been having issues with the unit again but we won't even get into that right now. The girls are doing awesome. Anna is doing ok at school. Kadi is still a butt monkey. We had a little fun on Imbolic at Der Vampire Ball. So I will leave you with a few pictures of the night that P had on her camera. J hasn't handed her's over yet.