sigh

all undone...

still here...

just not all here....

Have you

ever felt like your chest was gonna implode?

OMG

I am ok. I think. I want them gone. I need my OWN HOME BACK! But I can deal for a little bit longer I think. *sigh*

Soooo

Gonna make family mad at me soon *or part of it anyways*
An I don't know if I do much more housework that I didn't create...sigh..
It could be worse....

Dude!

hiding from my sis an bro in law at the coffee shop on their day off so they will watch their own kid. Wow.....I cant even stay at my own house...........

Wow

Ahcoo...

Been super busy cleaning...getting little people ready for Sahmain/Halloween...... An worrying over how to break the news to my sis that we will not all FIT when she has the 2nd baby. An I am not watching them both. I can't handle that. Espeacially since doesn't realize she's taking advantage of me ......I watch the baby almost everyday for ten to twelve hours...for free. An the one time I ask the to watch the girls *while they are asleep* they back out.
Not very happy. Feeling trapped inside my own home since I CAN"T go anywhere. They're sucking money out of me.
An these are things I have told them......they are not listening..... I am a maid an a nanny. Who seems to be here just to make their lives easier.

41 weeks til te end of the first year.......

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

I don't care if you live with me. It isn't ok for you to tell me how raise my children. I am not telling you how to raise yours, even though I am doing it for you.
No it isn't ok that I am watching the kids, cleaning everything, and paying for everything. This pisses me off.
An no it isn't ok that, I am the only one not allowed to have negative feelings. That I have to be the one to smile all the time. An be f*ing happy about everything. Well excuse me. I f*ing am not.
I happen to think the choices you both made are stupid. Having ANOTHER baby right is NOT a good idea. You cant afford the one you have. An NO you can not live with me for two years while you find your feet. Your f*ing sucking me dry!!!

Hey

if you can tell me who said this I will give you a cyber cookie!!!


"Music was my refuge.
I could crawl into the spaces,
between the notes and curl,
my back to loneliness."

Sorry been gone so long...

had my ten year HS reunion.....this is me at 2 am..
got all my stuff...an am trying to clean my house.
an I am missing TheDave....

Over an over.....

It's been one of those weeks you know. I have no idea whats going on, or how I feel. Just that I am drained. Hope everybody is ok.

We got the rents moved. My stuff gets here Friday. Preparing the house for that. It kinda blows...

My sister an her boy toy *my husbands brother* I know, I know can't get much more redneck huh. Are staying here. I watch the baby...it gets tedious an bitchy so you really don't want me to get into right now. Oh well.

write later......sigh.

Have you ever ...

just wanted to leave the kids with someone for a week....and not tell ANYONE where you were going?

I feel like that right now......

Oh Happy Mabon.......

sigh

oh yeahhh...

I guess I forgot to tell everyone that Dave is gone once more to the sandy place. Over to Iraq he went.
He will be back in 49 weeks an coutning.....

done!

we got the house. The bills are all changed over. Now we just gotta get my parents settled so I can get my stuff moved in. An everything will be COMPETELY done! LOL!

Hey!

Buying mom an Dad's house.
Hope everybody is doing well! sorry no pictures yet. We are still getting everything settled in! HUGHUG!

Home...

Now we are home...What a long flight...

*sigh*

Cleaning at 9:45 pm ....alone the night before we have to turn the house in.......I think I have a right to be 'slightly' miffed.

*I am so frigging tired...between P an I we have cleaned an painted two houses. But, my old man is upstairs not helping me...this bothers me slightly...as I have 3 bags to repack, a kitchen an bathroom to once over, an I am dog ass tired from scrubbing shit all damn day. 'oh an painting' Once again slightly miffed*

Wow! So busy!!!

Okay this weekend blows...it's sooooo busy. P is moving...we're getting everything to her house. *I hope!*
We also have to clean the car so we can turn it in. But we have just clean it...we have to CLEAN it. For an EPA inspection. An while I understand the need. It sooo blows.. They want to make sure we don't accidentally transport gypsy moths home with us...
An I have to gather everything that was left behind for hold baggage on Monday. We have like 3 boxes, but its sorting through an finding what to take on the plane an what gets put in hold. *sigh* All of this HAS to happen this weekend. Around 17 kids...holycow.
I wish I could take my projects....but my yarn won't fit in my bag. I have to comfort in the fact that Dave said he would take me to a yarn store as soon as we land. Or at least Wally world... *sigh*
Well back to cleaning!

Guess What :P

The movers just left. All our stuff is gone. We leave on the 23rd. *Crap*