Oops

So it’s been awhile... stuff happened
TheSmallest got worse... then better.

TheTallest graduated !!!   Holy crap!

Moose is doing loads better. 

Oh yeah and...

Here we go again..

Random Sunday thoughts....

- another week of crap.   TheSmallest is In The hospital again.  I don’t know what to do...

- TheTallest is doing well

- Moose is still a butthole

- I am afraid I am the worst thing for Lone_Ember.  He deserves better than me.  

-  am the safety meeting made me feel more terrible than I did before.  Now I feel like I’m in trouble for asking for help....

Random Sunday thoughts....

- the school sent cps to my house.  Because apparently the 7 meals a day the moose eats isn’t enough.  Long story, an I don’t wanna go through it again.

- TheTallest is going through the first breakup.... I feel terrible for her.

- TheSmallest has been skipping classes... and failing 

- I am a terrible mother

- I miss myself

- Lone_ember is fantastic.  I don’t know why he loves me

-  went to mental health.  So I have a safety meeting on Monday.  

- I need me

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- vacation should’ve been like a year longer.

- it was fantastic

- I need to get all the photos I order so I can post them

- Moose is doing well at school

- TheSmallest is feeling a lot better

- TheTallest is freaking out about exams

- I do not want to go back to work

- LoneEmber is amazing

- my coffee pot broke.... my new one arrives Monday 

- the great white north is currently covered in ice an snow

- starting on my run again... gotta get it back up

- have a great week!!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- he asked me... I said yes... it will be a whole though

- we are on our way to GA for Christmas/ Yule.  

- kids are okay so far

- He is doing really well

- I am having nightmares about going back to work.  I am off for almost 3 weeks

-  have a great week everyone!!

Random Sunday thoughts....

- 12 more days....12

- how do you get a 15 year-old to understand that what they do right now in school matter later.  That when they refuse to do anything at all it has consequences. 

- Lone_ember is gearing up for vacation as we speak.  I hope he understands the broken piece of me are still wobbly.

- Moose is being a butt ,  that’s normal though.

- TheTallest is calming down after she found out she can wait a little longer to be an adult.

- starting two week of midshift tonight.... and I can’t go back to sleep.  Ugh 

- TheSims3 ..... been playing it a lot.  No real thought process involved.  

- playing with yarn a lot.

- oh an I broke my toe on thanksgiving .... ow.  At least my knee is healed.

- Have a great week!!!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- still failing at work... I know I’m not, but I feel like it.

- coffee, need more coffee...

- must get body ready....

- will pay off all my credit card debt by 2021... not a goal, a fact.

- want a 90 on my PT test in May.  And it is possible.

- in 19 days we leave North Dakota for 3 weeks...I can’t wait.

- playing with yarn more.

- reading more.

- playing lots more dnd.

- feeling more myself lately.

Have a great week everyone!!!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

-feel like I’m failing at work. 

-feel like I’m failing as a mother.

-I have failed twice at being a wife.... how do I tell him I’m terrified of being a failure a third time.

-I wish it was December 13th.... then I could be packing to leave.

-I wish he was home so I could talk to him.

-I am old, fat, and tired.  And one which I can’t seem to pull myself out of this funk.

-I have 12 more squares completed.

-got to play Diablo 3 for a little while yesterday.

-that’s about it....

-have a great week everyone.

Random Sunday thoughts...

- thank the gods pt test is done an passed.

- I’m so tired.

- more coffee is needed.

- not very motivated .

- TheTallest boyfriend is in the hospital ... she’s not doing very well with it

- TheSmallest is refusing to try anymore

-Moose is being a dick at school. 

- the 22nd looks like when I will finally be done with papers.

- Lone_ember is my grounding point right now.

- at least I am off until Tuesday ... 

Well off to make my brain work

Have a good week!

Random Sunday Thoughts....

- I don’t wanna go to work tonight.

- I need a break.

- j needs to finish the fucking papers already.

- TheSmallest will be the death of me.... I feel like an utter failure....

- TheTallest is going to be better at life than she thinks.

- Moose is doing so much better this year.

- is a white lie still a lie? Asking for a friend.

- I now fear not being enough to the point of making shut up in my head.  Everything feels like I’m wrong no matter what anymore.  What do I do?

- Happy Samhain!!!

Have a good week.... 

Random Sunday thoughts....

-prepping for a pt test with a bum knee is terrible.

-TheTallest May be extending highschool.

-TheSmallest is getting better....

-Moose is a butt.  Although school is much better than last year.

-work sucks...

-Lone_Ember is fantastic....

-December needs to hurry the heck up....

- coffee....

Have a great week!

Random Sunday Thoughts...

-Well hello again... it's been awhile.

-I need coffee... well more coffee...

-I need to write more.

-I flipping can't wait for all the paper work to be done.  (so back story needed:  I left J almost immediately after my last blog post... DM for further details.)

-Moose is finally settling down after an awful two year stint ... He's 8 now.

-TheSmallest has become open with himself... and now have a 15 year old boy (not girl)  so we are all working on the right pronoun.  Thankfully he is understanding.

-TheTallest is 18 and a senior... she is not allowed to be an adult damnit!

-J got laid off sooo no child support to be expected soon.  So I pick real winners in that department :/

-I love my job (the part where we fix things not the part where we do 3 tons of paperwork)  but I do love it

-I met my best friend at basic, we went to tech together, and then against all odds got stationed here together.... so I am smitten again.  Only this time I am making him go through classes, meetings, and a long ass wait.  We have been together a little over a year now.  Lone_Ember is amazing an understanding.

-I need to find more pictures for you all (if anyone is still there)

-Have a great week.... TTyL

Tests...

Have a bitch of a test today.

Living my dream, my knight seems to be missing

Sunday thoughts

- any one else need more coffee

- happy an sad all at once

- doing well at tech

-!kids did great with the move

- just need attention. .... just a little

And begun

I am now an airmen

Ok...and 3,2,1...

Monday

Ok ....

My adventure offically starts at the end of July.   I will be an airmen!  Finishing a life long dream.  Both boots in.

Sigh

This is the second worst birthday ever.....

Adventure

Has begun! More info soon.  Right now is another lull of hurry up and wait.