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I am so off right now.  I feel like I am snapping at every one.  It's not from lack of eating.  I have been a good girl.   Fighting some old demons.  Having to deal with getting healthy around friends who aren't.  And the fact that my body hates me.  So used to taking the easy way. 

I finally figured out what my doctors meant when they tell you that eating disorders don't really ever go away.  They just like to resurface later as a different monster.